So she's gone...really, truly gone from my life. I feel so empty now. You never know how much you need a person until they are gone.
She told me to stay away and never talk to her again...and all I can do is obey that.
I only hope she can take care of herself and stay safe. And try to be happy for herself.
Because that would make one of us.
Goodbye, LJ, if you read this blog. Hopefully it doesn't last forever...but I won't delude myself. You never want anything to do with me, ever again...and it's all my fault.
And no, I'm not making myself out to be the victim...everybody has been hurt by this, LJ most of all. That doesn't make it hurt me any less though.
Please, LJ, if you read this...don't let this last forever. Take as long as you need, keep me away as long as you want, but I still want friendship with you. I'll wait years, if I must.
You're an amazing woman...I just hope you can see that one day, too.
And now it's time for me to go wallow in misery, until my plane flight comes. Then I can go wallow in misery back home.
5 comments:
What is "home" for you? It doesn't seem like you consider my home your home. I don't understand why you see us as the enemy. Friends come and go--family is forever. No one can ever care for you the way your own family does.
I give up. Alex (AKA 'Drake') refuses to accept that he has a problem. He 100% believes that LJ's parents forced her to serve a protective order against him, that they or we (his parents) sicked the FBI on him. LJ or Beth, if you are reading this PLEASE convince him that he needs psychological help.
I don't WANT the damn restraining order.
I didn't want it to START with.
Dear gods...
And. I still keep my issues against adults.
They don't care what their kids think. I'm still having an issue with my mom, who never listened to me, never helped me during the bullying.
She wants me to KEEP the restraining order. I want it done with.
I'm pissed.
Adults are a bunch of crack-heads, who take too much of their own minds and prides to listen to anything.
Over 18? yep!! You're an adult! Grow up and act like one. Both of you.
Oh, and by the way, if the FBI didn't agree with your parents that what he did is a FEDERAL CRIME, they would not have involved themselves. He's very lucky he's not in federal prison.
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