Wai hallo thar! LOLwut?

Everybody please remain calm. I can assure you that I've not fallen off the face of the planet!

Yet.

Okay, but seriously, I'm here, I'm doing all right. Mostly. I've just been painfully busy these last three-ish months.

You all know how I started that new job the last time I posted? Some of you may even remember how I did some back-pedaling and even removed any reference to where I actually work, (shh, sooper secret). Well, that pretty much defines my last three months. I've not done much else, that's for sure!

See, I work from 9am to 6pm, with a non-paid lunch at 1pm. However, I have no means of personal transportation...because I'm a dimwit like that. (That's right, I still don't have my license. A bit hard to get one when you work so much...wish I'd figured that out before I got a job. Even then, I can't exactly afford a vehicle.)
What does this mean? I ride the bus to and from work. In the morning, I wake up at 6 and leave by 7, and I could actually leave as late as 7:20 if necessary, (I'm lucky to have this luxury, I used to need to leave as early as 6:40). With that, I show up about 15-20 minutes before my shift, and even get to stop by Wendy's for breakfast on the way.
I don't get home until 8ish, sometimes even as late as 8:30. It's even worse if I'm held for mandatory overtime (at least I get paid extra for that), though that hasn't happened in a couple of weeks.

Don't get me wrong, I love working where I do, even though I deal with unruly customers so often (I typically get through 50 people a day, if I'm not slow, and my quota is actually supposed to be 80 a day, or 10/hr). It's just the bus ride that pisses me off.

Other than that, I really have been doing much else but sleep and play World of Warcraft. I really don't have enough free time to do anything else, or think about anything else.

Oh, here's something to think about. I'm turning 21 soon. You know, for some of you, that's a big important birthday. "Oh my god you can drink now!"
I honestly don't care. Drinking does not interest me in the slightest, and I don't care what you think about it. It's my choice to make.

Also, I've found out how the whole holiday thing goes at my job. There's the "Big 3" company holidays: Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's Day. I get to take only one of those off. I *might* get more than just that exact day off, but it's not guaranteed. Also, it's not guaranteed I'll get the one I want, though supposedly saying that "I'm traveling to visit my folks in another city" should guarantee both of those things. And right now, I'm thinking what would be nice is to get the whole week for Christmas off (not likely, but I like having high hopes, thank you) and then...I could see if it's possible for Kitiy to come down with me when I visit my folks. I can't help but feel it's only right my parents at least get to meet the girl I want to settle down with...

Well...Kitiy, yeah. She's been having it pretty rough, even though it's really just the same old story as it always is. Doesn't get along at all with her parents, has to deal with a sucky school, always bored cause she has nothing to do, always miserable because she is always incorrectly guessing that people hate her...(that pessimism game is never a good way to do things)
I guess it doesn't help that her Internet access has been very heavily limited by her parents, ever since they basically stole her computer, and now, though she has the computer back, her computer doesn't seem to acknowledge their wireless router. So that leaves the two of us with very few ways to A: communicate and B: do fun stuff together and C: not fight (yeah, seems short tempers are bad for limiting situations).

Though, she did recently get Internet back onto her own computer, so I think she can get on when she wants now. We'll see about how that pans out...
So now she can at least play online games again. In fact, after asking her about it of course, I went and even decided to buy WoW for her, and pay for her subscription for now, (hey, I don't pay for-...nevermind, I shouldn't mention that.). I'm going to do it through the pre-paid game cards though. This way, the account is still officially in her name and she can take over payments if she ever wants to do so.
But honestly, I don't know if that will really be enough for her. She claims to not have ANY friends. Apparently all the guys, and most of the girls, just care about dating her rather than really being her friend, even though they all know about me. Her closest friend moved out to Georgia to live with her own lover and start college, so that's not exactly pleasant.

It's getting more and more bothersome that she's up there in Oklahoma instead of here. We keep talking about her moving down to live with me, but we're pretty much going to have to wait until her last year of high school is done. Hopefully that all works out nicely...because she really needs to get out of Oklahoma. It seems to be a very stressful environment for her.

But... I think I'd rather have her talk about what's going on with her. It's *her* life, and I can't tell it from her perspective...because I don't completely understand why she's so miserable, and there are many things I disagree with her on. I suppose that's because I always try to make do with what I have, rather than letting things get me down (not that I'm never depressed) and she seems to be more interested in finding a reason to be miserable.
If any of you are wondering at all, Lyr Lomn Serion on Facebook (fake name, still...she's stubborn about that I guess...or maybe her parents are) happens to be Kitiy, if you haven't quite deduced that on your own. Not that I'm suggesting you contact her. Even if you really do have serious intentions of being her friend or at least trying to be friendly, she may very well just ignore you. Antisocial people do that ya know. Never hurts to try, I suppose, if you feel like it.

Well, it's late, and I'm still trying to give in to a demanding girlfriend who is never satisfied. So...with that in mind, I'm gonna get back to my weekend. Or rather, what's being called my weekend. I sleep so much on the weekends, and all I do when awake is play WoW...so it's really all just a waste of time.

Though...lately, I've been worried she'll try to push me away again. She's been acting that sort of way too much recently. And, I guess...though none of you would see it, since you don't know her, she's changed a lot. She didn't used to be all depressed and miserable, really. She used to be the opposite.
Well, yeah, she still got depressed a bunch. I mean that she just actively fought that. She did her best to be happy and not let things affect her ability to have fun. Somewhere along the line...she seemed to give up. Sure, she wasn't preppy...but she was kinda...bubbly with joy. The sort that just makes other people around happy, because even if she didn't try...somehow knowing she was smiling and happy would just brighten your day.
And....knowing she lost that about herself just hurts me right here in the chest. Like a constant squeeze, you know. It's really like she's lost who she is.

What could affect one person to the breaking point like that? To just give up?