Sigh...

Well, the weather seems to finally approaching the usual unbearable heat of Texas. Time to stash away the duster for a while.
I swear, the weather in the past couple of months have been the strangest ever. I've never seen snow in Texas before. Outside of Texas, yeah, but not inside. And then these past couple weeks, it's been alternating between hot and cold. It's like Texas can't decide if it wants to be hot or cold.

Wednesday was a bitch, but not because of the weather. I had an exam at seven. Guess what? I didn't know where it was at. I had no clue. I e-mailed the professor before the exam, with plenty of time for her to read her e-mail and reply. I never got a response. So. I missed the first exam of that class...simply because I didn't know where the exam was given. I really hope that does not mean I'm screwed. All I want to do is pull out of the class with at least a B.

So, in gaming news, my pals and I have all gone and joined a DotA clan. Clan Nekrosis, nKs on battle.net, if you really must know. So I spend some hours each day sitting in Ventrilo, playing DotA with these people. If you don't know, Ventrilo is a program involving voice chat servers. I even went and got a headset with a microphone and everything.
Also, I have taken to playing Dungeons & Dragons with a bunch of my friends as well. I'm an Elven Ranger. Yeah, I've achieved a new level of nerdiness, eh?
Oh, I also beat FFXII. I liked the game, but I am still somewhat disappointed. Some things just felt off to me.

Kitiy seems to be mad at me...for what I do not know. But she is, as usual, going through the act of saying she hates me with all her being and has claimed to break up with me. If she keeps doing this every time she gets mad at the small things, I'll not be able to tell if she truly does decide to break up with me. To be honest, I'm not sure what has got her pissed off this time. All I can say is that it makes me want to just go back to sleep and stop existing. Do you have any idea how hard it is to go through your day, realizing that the one person who can possibly make you truly happy is angry at you, and you don't even know why? It's even harder when that person is so far away you can't even look at her with your own two eyes.
I suppose I deserve it all. I still often wonder if I deserve her at all. Sigh. Why can't love be easy?

It would be so much easier to just give up on life...it's hard enough to resist the urge to give up, let alone actually try. I'll be going off to campus today to go through a normal day of classes...and I'm not even sure why I'm doing it...it's not like anybody expects me to succeed...not like anybody cares enough to root for me and help me up when I fall.

There seem to be other things that I want to say...but my heart refuses to let me put them into words. I hate depression. Cause then just existing feels like a struggle.

Sleep? Qué es?

Well, yesterday...seems to have been a total waste of time for me. I ended up sleeping in an extra two hours, and then when I woke up, I discovered the water in my apartment was mysteriously turned off for about half an hour. Otherwise, I probably would've made it to campus in time for my first class barely. Perhaps even 5 minutes late. With my hair still fairly wet from the shower. And my stomach rumbling in hunger from lack of breakfast.
Yeah, so sue me, I like getting up way before my classes and getting to campus an hour early. It makes my day go much more smoothly. Try it some time.

So. I missed my first class. Okay, I get three free absences in that class...that's the second.
Second class: it's just a Q&A for the test today. It's an easy test, so I don't need to go to this.
Third class: I never go, I can't follow the teachers ramblings as well as I'd like to. I know the early material fairly well anyways.
So I didn't go to classes yesterday. Not a thing to boast about, considering the effect that has had over the past two semesters. But okay, this is just one day...as long as I don't keep up this bad habit, I should be fine. The trick is to stop doing it. >.< style="font-weight: bold;">soon. First things first: make sure not to fuck up on the first test of the semester tonight. (for CS315, so that's not too hard)
Next thing: go through all the M340L homework I haven't done and hopefully catch myself up to the point of not repeated the mistake of not doing the homeworks. And be able to do well on the midterm in the first week of March/last week of February. This is really the one class that worries me.
And from there, I think I need to work on my CS310 attendance record...it's not looking too good right now. At least I did well on the first homework, last I checked. Let's keep that up, shall we? Another one is due Monday. >.<

But hey, there's one good thing about being up at this hour: I'm definitely heading to campus extra early and stopping by the UPS Store. Need to get that done soon, it's now the 8th. Kitiy's b-day is the 13th. I just need a box and semi-decent packing material. I should also actually get myself over to Abel's Copies and grab the student packet for my EDP310 course. Been putting that off for way too long.

...I really haven't improved at all from last semester have I? -.-

Also, I should mention: For some reason, a cough lingers from the build-up of allergies a couple days ago. I'm starting to worry it might be some sort of chest cold.

3-in-1

Well, I finally went outside without wearing my trench coat today. Wore my windbreaker instead. It was as different as night and day. My first thoughts when putting on the windbreaker were "Woah, did this thing wear down a little?"
The difference in weight is that much. Needless to say, I felt half-naked most of the day. Though it was rather nice using the hood to hide from the sun, rather than having to squint. I seriously need to find a good pair of shades for a decent price.

Kitiy's birthday is in five days...so this means it's about time I got off my ass and actually shipped out her birthday gift. Not to mention the late Christmas gift and a V-day gift. >.>;
Yeah...three gifts at once. I shouldn't have waited so long for the Xmas gift, but that was mostly because she needed permission to give me her address or something like that.
Ah well. Plan right now is to head down to the UPS store so I can get a box of just the right size for all three gifts...and maybe some decent packing materials. Can't have them bouncing around on the way there.
I'd originally wanted to put her V-day gift in a fancy-looking box with tissue paper around it and stuff...maybe some other level of fanciness tossed in. But it seems it couldn't be done this year. I'm sure she won't really mind that much...hell, I'm sure she'd be happy if I just celebrated V-day by spending the whole day chatting with her, with the exception of necessary classes and obvious daily needs.
Hopefully the b-day gift I chose will outshine everything so much that it makes up for the lack of fancy gift-packaging.

I don't have much else to say about my day. I think I did earlier today, but I forgot about it by the time I actually got around to blogging. Forgot to do laundry. Again. Well...more like put it off again. Also managed to put off a grocery run once more. Not that we're in desperate need of one.
Ah...also managed to put off my M340L homework...yet again. I need to force myself to start on a homework assignment or two while waiting for the ACM meeting tonight. >.<

Heat is not cool!

Well, first off: I finally got my ass down to the post office. I have meds! Yay!
So I should be better, allergy-wise, by tomorrow.

Other than that...it's TOO FUCKING HOT! >.<
Seriously...just last Friday I could walk around in my trench coat and still feel the cold. Now if I even THINK of going outside, I seem to break into a sweat. I so hate living in Texas. I desperately hope I can get a job somewhere a bit chillier. Or at least less hot and sunny.
It's the sun that does it after all. If there were just enough clouds in the sky to totally block out sunlight, I'd be happy. Sure, I wouldn't be able to wear my trench coat still, but I'd be happy.

Speaking of sunlight...I think I'm about to break down and spend money on over-priced sunglasses...

Cough cough

Well, I woke up this morning with a bit of a cough. Still a bit congested and everything, too. I definitely plan to stop by the post office right after classes and pick up my packages, one of which is Nettle. For now, Kleenex and Halls will have to suffice. Oh, and this annoying nasal spray from HEB. (For those of you who don't know what HEB is, it's basically the local Wal-mart of all Texas)

I also realized when I woke up that we're still out of milk. Good thing I woke up early, so now I can go to Which Wich for breakfast/brunch. Maybe I'll actually remember to go down to 23rd and Rio Grande to get the student packet for EDP 310. Maybe...

I spent yesterday, Sunday, outside under the burning rays of the evil sun, doing my job as a soccer referee. Joy. I made $66 as usual. I don't know if the pay is really worth the trouble of going out to those fields and putting up with the crap that the players of that particular league seem to spit out for every call we make, but a little pocket cash is nice for my daily meals. Particularly Which Wich.

Now I just need to find a decent hourly-wage job to take up my weekdays. I don't look forward to it, I'll be honest with you. As much as I need to get more money into my bank account to start paying off these college loans, and as much as I need to buff my bank account for the next school year (seeing as I'm no longer eligible for federal aid thanks to my GPA being less than a 2.0), and as much as I want to have money in my bank account for my random purchases (like new headphones, gifts for Kitiy, a new mouse, a new webcam (the one I have recently broke! that's two now! >.<), and perhaps some other random unforeseeable temptation to spend money *coughnewlaptopcough*)...I really don't want to lose all this free time I have. It's kinda nice to have the hours between 3pm and whenever I go to bed to choose to do whatever I want, because I have so much of it. I can choose to sit back, relax, and play some video games (like DotA with my buds), or I can choose to work on classwork, or I can choose to study, or I can choose to spend my time chatting with Kitiy. Granted, I more often choose the first option, but it's nice to have that freedom.

Not to mention, what if I get a job that starts right after classes end? How will I manage to get to the post office and pick up packages then? It almost defeats the purpose.

Don't worry, though, I will go out and get some work. I'm just griping as usual. -.-

Suffering

The title just about says it all. For the past couple of days, I've been rather heavily congested, and I think it might even be getting worse. Nothing I have is working to solve the problem. >.< style="font-weight: bold;">weeks. Not exactly too wise on my part.

I've been waking up each morning with a sore throat...I'd just take a cough drop, but I'm going to have to suffer tomorrow. I ran out today, and my throat is already hurting right now. -.-

I have this nasal spray stuff that my mother gave me before I came back from break...but all it does it make it so I can breathe through my nose. It also makes me sneeze rather frequently. I stopped by the Jester market Friday night before coming home to grab whatever cheap decongestant they had, but it doesn't seem to be doing the trick.

My only hope is to last to Monday when the post office re-opens. -.-

This has caused me to not want to do any kind of work, not even open up Cyber and edit what I already have.

Return of the Bad Habits

Well, so far, I've been rather terrible about doing class assignments. The first assignment for M340L, I did like 3/4 of, because I fell asleep before I could start on it the night before. I ended up doing all of what I did in about the 3 hours before class that day. That was last week. This week I didn't even bother to start that homework. Though, really...that was just cause I was feeling rather depressed at the time, as Kitiy and I had just had a bit of a tiff. Nothing major to worry about...we got over it after a good night's sleep.

In CS315, I turned in the first puzzler on time...but then, I've had that done for three semesters now. Sunday the first project is due...I need to talk to Ellipsis about us actually doing that. We both know how to do it and could probably do it in like an hour, if we just sat down and did it. The question is whether or not we can get ourselves to stop playing DotA against each other long enough to do the work.

And now...here I am in the basement. CS310 Homework #1 is due in 2 hours and 40 minutes...and I'm only just starting on it.

I really need to get better about homework habits, eh?
Like...I'll *plan* to do the homework...but I'll never actually carry out the plan.
I'm trying to improve on this, but..bad habits are the hardest ones to break. I think tomorrow I should spend a couple hours forcing myself to go over M340L stuff. Do the assignment that was due yesterday just to do it, so I know how to do that stuff...then try to start on next week's assignment.

I also have a homework assignment for this EDP 310 course... =\
It's a rather pointless course, in my opinion, supposedly meant to help improve my learning habits and other things like that. EDP stands for Educational Psychology. It's required, since I'm on Scholastic Probation. Eh....I need to start on it tomorrow.

I just need to get into the habit of starting assignments early, rather than the couple of hours before they're due. -.-

Alien Mouse

Well, I got my new mouse today.

You see, my old Logitech wireless mouse, the one that I'd had just as long as my laptop, broke on me. The part that I plug into my laptop's USB port to communicate with the mouse broke, to be more accurate. You know the little metal thing that actually plugs in? Well, umm...that part kinda snapped off. Yeeeah...kinda bad. I tossed that mouse out instantly. Fortunately, having a laptop means I also have a touchpad, so it wasn't too bad. And I borrowed a sucky temp mouse from Ellipsis.

Anyways. Now I have a Razer Copperhead. I haven't used it much other than just normal computer stuff. It can read up to 2000 dpi, and it's light as a paperweight. It also has a bunch of cool glowing blue lights on it, including the scroll wheel and a pulsating Razer logo on the back. Yes. It pulsates.

Kitiy seems to think it looks alien. Maybe it was made by aliens? O.o

Eh...there's probably like 20 other things I could blog about besides getting a new mouse...something you'd actually care about reading...but I have a mild sinus headache right now so it's hard to think straight. >.<

Umm...let's see...*tries to think*

Eh....I guess I should mention I'll soon be taking up my trusty...virtual pen...and make another attempt at fiction writing. Maybe I can squeeze out some more ideas from this poor excuse for a brain.

Oh, also. I am almost seriously considering joining the DotA Open division of CAL...but seeing as I don't know even 5 people on campus that I'd trust as team mates in a DotA league, it's not likely to happen.

Anyways. Excuse me while I lay down on my comfy bed to chat with the lovely Kitiy. ^.^;