Dammit...addiction...

Yeah. Ever the gamer addict, aren't I? Some of my friends among the new freshman CS students who joined the ACM got me thoroughly addicted to DotA.
In case you don't know, that's a custom map for WarCraft 3: The Frozen Throne, titled Defense of the Ancients. It's apparently the most popular form of play through the Battle.net servers.

I'm also a bit addicted to Footman Frenzy, but two of the people I frequently play with are nubs at it and, as a result, lose horribly and thus hate the map. I keep trying to get them to do a 2v2 or even a 2v1v1, so they can at least stand a chance, learn how to play, and have fun doing it, but...ah well.

DotA can be pretty fun when you pick a random hero to try out. It's rather a bit required when I play them, since I make the game imbalanced with my Syllabear. I play a mean Syllabear. Da bears.

I'm fine with it, though. The game would get boring quick if I won too often. According to Scott, in official TDA (I actually have no idea what the acronym is, I've just heard of it >.>) Syllabear is actually banned in anything less than a 4v4, so...yeah. I have fun with all sorts of heros lately. Oh, and for the record: I fucking hate to play against a good N'aix. I can only handle him with Sylla so far, and even then...it's tough.

It's not just the addiction that's causing problems for me. I mean, sure...it obviously prevents me from studying like I should be doing, but to make things worse...well. Hm. It's sorta like, when I have free time, I think to myself "I should do this...but I don't feel like it" and then look for some way to waste time.
I sometimes wake up in time for class. Seriously. But usually what happens is I find myself...I dunno...not caring. It's the best way to explain it. It's weird. I don't care...but I WANT to care. Sounds weird, yeah, but...that's how it is. And I hate it. Maybe I've got some psychological disorder and need help? O.o
I think the best way to explain it is...I'm lacking motivation. You know what I mean? And it's really...quite a bad thing to lack motivation in life. Just a bit.

And it's because of Matt playing Footiez when I crashed at his place back in August that I first even tried WC3. So...I blame you for this, ya bastard! >O